First Kiss

smear on makeup heavy and dark

we need to look older

smarter

cooler

meet them at the park down the street

dont act too excited

let them think we do this all the time

take us home to your mom

feed us rum and red wine on empty stomachs

kiss us when our heads spin

kiss me till i puke red and you can't remember what you gave me to drink

is this wine or blood

stop taking advantage of me

you're drunk too

Well i've never been drunk a day in my life

your hand is in my pants and i've never even been kissed before today

please stop take me home

carry me home

kicking and screaming and begging you to leave me here

to die on the ground

im so tired

what an inconvenience this must be for you

when you have hockey practice in the morning

leave me in the dirt outside my parents front door

i'll be fine

i probably wont even remember how you stuck your hand down my pants while i puked

telling me that you were drunk too