EMDR

she taps her pen against your knees


left knee right knee


don't open your eyes


she says





tell me the first thing you remember





you tell her about


how much


you wanted them to like you


how scared you were


to push their hands away





what are you feeling right now





you push your feet down harder


hoping the floor will open up


and give you a place to hide


you relax your jaw


slow your breathing


you tell her the same lie you always do





i don't feel anything